while you’re busy making other plans. Thank you John Lennon for words of wisdom that explain my life. I was so eager to be inspired, so excited to read numerous books that led me to a spiritual awakening.. and then I became nearly overwhelmingly busy in my everyday life. I have not had the time to spare for the things I thought my soul really needed. This may turn out to be just a year of doing what has to be done, getting by and looking forward to greener pastures. However, there is something about myself that I’d quite forgotten. I’m not a passive person, I never have been.. I’m an active learner. In my rebellious teenage years, I remember telling my disappointed parents, “I’m not the kind of person who learns from cautionary tales, I must make the mistakes myself!” This has turned out to be a part of my personality I’m afraid, not with mistakes necessarily but with everything. I learn by living, doing, feeling. Then, I process it afterwards. So maybe living freely and entirely is my path to enlightenment. I’m not a perfect person, but I sure am a self-aware one. Through every day life I learn more about myself and about human beings in general. And that’s enough for me, for now.

I’ve recently decided realized that this is a year for me to be single. Not single and dating, but single and alone. Alone, but not lonely. I have spent years of my life going on dates, and too much time on relationships with not-the-right men. I have dating stories unlike any other, I’ve had lots of fun, lots of heartbreak, and learned invaluable life lessons. This year, however, is for me. I am done dating the masses of mediocre men. I am going to spend time on myself, bettering myself. My year of self-discovery. I talked to my mom about this and she reminded me of an Ayn Rand quote: “To say ‘I love you’ one must first be able to say the ‘I’. My mother is a very smart lady.

This blog will remain anonymous as far as my name. If you’d like to know who I am, then we are in the same boat. As a female twenty-something, I am going through a bit of an identity.. I don’t want to say ‘crisis’ because that is just not the right descriptive word.. maybe its more like an identity revamp. I find myself fairly mature for my age and yet, with seemingly inescapable¬†flaws. I’m on a quest to better myself, and challenge myself to find beauty in all things. This blog will be about my everyday life, as well as my journey as a human being. I thought I had it all figured out, the past few years I grew in maturity leaps and bounds, and I reveled in it, but recently I realized.. something’s missing. I want more out of life. I want to spiritually connect to humanity. I want to explore and grow and learn. This will be my mission, and you are invited to follow my progress.